Well, today started off with going to the airport and leaving my parents. We all sat down for breakfast and coffee in the airport until it was time for my parents to go. After some hugs exchanged and tears falling, we had to go separate ways. It was really hard to see my parents leave and to bury the feeling of wanting to leave with them.
I was worried that when my parents left, I would feel the same as I did when I first got here, a little homesick and feeling like this could never be home. Luckily, this was not the case, though it is different. It still feels like home here, but everything feels a little more empty. All of my stories are about my parents and I feel bad telling them because most people here did not get to have their families visit. I see stuff all over that reminds me of them and I really miss them.
One month, though, until I get to be home with them. On the flip side though, only one more month of this amazing experience. It has gone so fast and I don't really know how to feel. I have learned so much about just life and how lucky I am to be living with so many privileges in the States, and to think that this is one of the better off cities (in the sense of luxuries) than many just completely baffles me.
I've also learned how to embrace who I am and not care what people think. For a Christian college, Messiah is one of the most judgmental environments I have ever lived in. It is hard to be yourself because there is a standard for everyone and you want to fit and to be liked. Everything you do and say is judged by someone. Being here has really helped me to embrace myself, knowing that the people who judge me aren't the people I would want to be hanging with anyways. I want my friendships and relationships to be built off of pure truth, not me being this person that I am not.
I also know that God has a plan, and it is not going to change just because I am walking down the street and singing out of tune just a little too loud, or I wear my jeans a few more times before washing them. I am me and it is what it is.
Anyways, besides missing my family, I made some plans with Erin to get together on Sunday with Brittany too. Also, Karlyn, Brittany and I went into town and did some shopping, got FROYO and headed back. Since then I have been hanging out in the apartment and catching up on my blogging. Luckily I am all caught up now and I promise to try to be more on top of it! Love you guys, and thanks for reading. :)
I was worried that when my parents left, I would feel the same as I did when I first got here, a little homesick and feeling like this could never be home. Luckily, this was not the case, though it is different. It still feels like home here, but everything feels a little more empty. All of my stories are about my parents and I feel bad telling them because most people here did not get to have their families visit. I see stuff all over that reminds me of them and I really miss them.
One month, though, until I get to be home with them. On the flip side though, only one more month of this amazing experience. It has gone so fast and I don't really know how to feel. I have learned so much about just life and how lucky I am to be living with so many privileges in the States, and to think that this is one of the better off cities (in the sense of luxuries) than many just completely baffles me.
I've also learned how to embrace who I am and not care what people think. For a Christian college, Messiah is one of the most judgmental environments I have ever lived in. It is hard to be yourself because there is a standard for everyone and you want to fit and to be liked. Everything you do and say is judged by someone. Being here has really helped me to embrace myself, knowing that the people who judge me aren't the people I would want to be hanging with anyways. I want my friendships and relationships to be built off of pure truth, not me being this person that I am not.
I also know that God has a plan, and it is not going to change just because I am walking down the street and singing out of tune just a little too loud, or I wear my jeans a few more times before washing them. I am me and it is what it is.
Anyways, besides missing my family, I made some plans with Erin to get together on Sunday with Brittany too. Also, Karlyn, Brittany and I went into town and did some shopping, got FROYO and headed back. Since then I have been hanging out in the apartment and catching up on my blogging. Luckily I am all caught up now and I promise to try to be more on top of it! Love you guys, and thanks for reading. :)
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