surrender

Happy Sunday night...sike. I think it is a silent agreement between everyone that Sunday night is a horrible thing because for most people it means work or school the next day. Life has been all over the place. I never thought it would happen but I am officially ready for Greece. All of my work for it is done, just went to the Greek Embassy on Friday and got my visa. The only thing I have left is to get my insurance card and that is probably the easiest thing to do. It is starting to feel real to me now. At this time in exactly three weeks, I will be in Greece. RIGHT freaking NOW. Life is crazy.
I had a weird dream last night. It was involving a bunch of random things. My ex was in it, and he wanted me back. My frisbee team was in it except I didn't know anyone on the team anymore. My hamster escaped from its cage and tried to escape out the door and it was open but it kept running into some invisible wall. And my best friend went missing. Odd, right? I have to say, waking up and not having someone begging for me back was hard, but I shook it off by the time I got up. Dreams are tough sometimes, whether they are too good for reality, so scary that you wake up panting, or so deep that it makes you think too much. Anyways, thats enough of that.
This has been quite the journey for me over these last few months. I've gone from cloud nine, to my lowest low, and now I am building back up again. It has not been easy but it's been getting better. I can take no credit for this, though, because this was not my plan. This is all God's plan for me. I've been spending way too much of my life just doing things my way, I am finally ready to turn over and surrender my stubborn ways. I think hitting my low will be helpful, everything stripped away so I can rebuild myself but in the right ways and in the light of God's plan for me.
Anyways, life has been crazy but I think these next few weeks in preparation for Greece should be smooth sailing and riding under the radar. I don't have big plans and I don't plan on making any. Since I will be away for three months, I will spend this time I have with the people most important in my life, which would be my family, and a very select group of friends from here and school. If I do not see you, do not take offense to it, I don't have enough time to see everyone and if I did... well life doesn't work that way.
Well, I'm feeling a little down at the moment so I think it is time to turn over and get ready for tomorrow. I got a week of work ahead of me before my next break so, here we go!