realizations

My countdown has finally hit the single digits, in 9 days I will be on a plane to Greece. I have SO much to do before I leave and so many people to see, I don't know how I am going to do it.  I've been loving this warm weather, definitely been having a positive effect on my mood.
Also, God has been very evident in my life lately. For a little while there, since my last post, I fell back into missing my ex. Well, look here I am going to Greece for three months. No texting or anything. This whole time I have wanted me time and to get away, and I now see how well God has planned out my life. He knew way ahead of time what was right for me and what I needed and has been working it into this elaborate plan of his since day one. So what better place to pick than Greece, right? The Man has got some good taste, I'll give him that.
My dog had some struggles in the last few days and it got to the point where he couldn't walk. Vet said he has arthritis. The only man in my life and he's falling apart. Sad. He has meds though so he should be alright now.
I've gotta say, I am definitely going to miss the kids at work while I'm gone. I walk in the classroom in the morning and kids come running up to me with these precious smiles. I have jokes with certain kids and special little connections with them. Ugh, it saddens me. I mean, I will get to see them all when I return because the summer camp I work at is on the same property as the daycare. It will just be hard saying bye to them and some of the people at work that I've grown closer with.
Basically my realization since my last post is that I am so much better than what I've been putting myself through. I am better than moping around, better than doing nothing with my life, better than him. I have been created for greatness, we all have. I deserve to life a life full of adventure and happiness and joy. I deserve a man that will be fully dedicated to me. I deserve to be accepted for all that I am. I just deserve better. I can really tell that this year of not dating is going to do great things for me personally and my relationship with God. I'm excited!