Helllooooo readers. I apologize if anyone had intended on following me daily, I am having trouble with making a habit out of blogging. They say it takes 40 days to create a habit so I really need to get on this before I'm in Greece and forgetting what blogging even is. I have been feeling refreshed lately and back to myself. I'm still sick (sinus infection) but I'm on an antibiotic that will hopefully help with that. Today I had a strong urge to go take pictures with my old school Minolta. This became a strong passion of mine from around spring break last year and faded by the beginning of the school year in the fall. It feels good to have some of my strong passions coming back and wanting to go out and do things again.
My Valentines Day, which was right where I left off before, was fabulous. I was worried about how I would hold up but it was great. I went to work and all of my students had personal cards for me and some even gave me chocolates and other goodies. I then came home and my sister had left me flowers and chocolate next to my bed for me since I don't have a boy to do it for me. Honestly, that was the most thoughtful thing I've had anyone do for me before. It's one thing when you have a significant other and it is almost their job to do that, or when you have a lot of money to throw around, but she is neither. She has a boyfriend to take care of her on that day and doesn't have a job so has very little money, but went out of her way to take care of me. It really made me happy. I am a lucky girl to have a family like the one I have.
Greece is in ONE MONTH. Hollllyyyy cowww. I am pumped. So pumped. It is finally hitting me that I am going away, I started shopping for cute outfits to bring and panicking about how I am going to pack for all weather situations and manage to get that from here to Greece. I still have a lot of paperwork and Visa crap to do for it but I'm not too worried about it. I AM STOKED.
Wow, okay. Anyhow, I want to come clean about something. Now for anyone who knows me, I am a very open person, I'm pretty confident in who I am and what I believe in. With that said, I have not always been this way. Back in middle school, I was the complete opposite. I had horrible acne, glasses, and braces. I was not super smart and I was not popular, I tried a million sports and none worked out for me, I tried choir but soon realized I can't sing. It was rough. Now, all of these things are still issues, I still have a permanent retainer in my mouth but its hidden, I have contacts but nobody can tell, and I have acne but I am being treated for it and can cover it up. So before I knew about the other alternatives, I was stuck in this body. I was tall and lanky and awkward. Looking at pictures almost pains me.
I don't know where I was going with that story but I do really find it encouraging to see how much I have turned around. It is truly amazing to see how people can discover themselves and learn how to be comfortable in their own skin. In my case it was contacts and concealer, but it is different for everyone. I just love seeing how you can really make changes in your life to better yourself if you want to, and I've been seeing changes like that in myself even now. With the struggles I was recently going through and still am somewhat, it has been cool to see how I am coping and handling myself. I owe a lot of it to God because as I encounter negative thoughts that I would have dwelled on before, I am able to just stop completely and pray for relief from these thoughts and it is almost instantaneous. Really it is such a blessing to have such a high power looking down on me and guiding me through my life. They say that the weak and hard times in your life bring you closer to Him and I have been a culprit of this. I do worry that as things get better that I will lose that connection, but so far so good and I will keep working at it! It has been more of a habit than blogging so thats a good start :P. Anyhow, have a great night folks. I hope what I blog about has at least some impact or encouragement for you.
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