confessions

..or truths, whatever you want to call them. I am going to dedicate a blog to just writing down random things about myself. I will do it over the course of a day so by the time this is posted, I put a full day into it. Usually my posts are sporadic and what not.
1. I am terrified of needles/giving blood/having anything pierce my skin. This has not stopped me from getting piercings, but I have to stay seated after every one I get for about ten minutes...otherwise I will stand up and fall right back down. Unconscious. This has happened.
2. My family jokes that I am the "black widow." They say this because of the amount of boyfriends I have had and the very brief duration that each one of them lasted. Apparently I have the "kiss of death." It is funny but sometimes it gets to me and I get down about not being able to stick with someone.
3. Joshua Radin's music can make me happy on any occasion. It is always so fitting to what is going on in my life. Basically, the man is one of my favorite (it not number one) artists.
4. I am the world's biggest hopeless romantic. I will sit at work and daydream that the man I am into will pop in the door and tell me that he loves me. Then I get my hopes up and watch the door all day. It's pretty pathetic.
5. There are many people from my past (ex-boyfriends or past flings) that I am not completely over. That is why I am attempting the whole "one year without dating" to give myself some time to heal and be fully ready for a relationship.
6. I am a very open person about my feelings and what is going on in my life. It has sometimes gotten me in trouble and other times it has made situations in my life 10x better. I just think that people in my life, whether it be friends or boyfriends, should accept me for all of me. If they can't then they aren't the people I would want in my life anyways.
7. My family is the most important thing in my life. I get homesick when I am away at school for too long. I get upset when school breaks are over and I have to leave home again.
8. Reading is one of my favorite hobbies. When I read, I feel like I can forget about everything in my life and live in this alternate reality where fairy-tale characters and romances exist. I get upset when I finish a book because it is like ending a relationship...often times I have considered flipping back to the first page and reading it again.
9. Photography is probably my main passion. I love capturing the beauty in things and doing it in a way that can show everyone else what I see.
10. My job has trained me so well that I am convinced that I will be the best mother when it comes time. I have mastered changing diapers, feeding, bottles, burping, rocking, ect. Not only that but I have the clean and vacuum every day before I leave . Basically I'm a pro.
11. I sleep with a stuffed animal duck. I find it comforting to hold on to something when I am trying to sleep. I feel lonely when I go away for the weekend and don't bring it.
12. I am terrified of tornadoes. I have recurring nightmares of tornadoes striking down and either having to run from them outside or having not enough time to get a good safe place to stay. Whenever it gets really intensely windy I get silently afraid that a tornado will form.
13. I burp. A lot and very loudly. Usually when I find a guy that I like, I won't do that in front of him until I am sure that he really likes me and won't leave me just because I burp. But once the first one comes out, there is not stopping me. I have out-burped many men, including my father.
14. I am very forgetful. And with that I confess that this post leaked into the next day because I forgot about it.

That's all for now.

Also, I brought my Facebook back because Twitter kept saying things like "RIP Facebook" and it made me curious...but it is still existent. But I figured I'll just keep it up and try to stay away from it for the most part. Have a good day!