new years resolution

Just finished tonights new episode of Pretty Little Liars and I gotta say, the love that Aria and Ezra have literally gives me butterflies. I mean, they've got everything against them, but they are willing to risk it all for their love. Sheesh. Powerful stuff there. The only downfall is that it builds and eggs on the inner hopeless romantic in me. Let's be real here, this stuff doesn't actually happen. Call me bitter, but its the truth.
With that said, I would like to propose my new New Years resolution. I don't know if I will stick to it or not, but I'm really gonna try. Though you cannot put a time limit on these kinds of things, I am going to try to dedicate the full year of 2012 to me. What I mean by this is, I am going to try to stay away from dating for the duration of the year. I suppose it sounds shallow, or stupid or selfish or whatever, but I think it will be good for me. Since I got my first boyfriend in 8th grade, I have been going from relationship to relationship without stopping for myself. With that, I haven't been giving myself recovery time, time to get  over people and to heal fully. I cannot say I'm actually completely over my last three exes, and probably more than that.
There are people in my life that are pursuing me, and this makes it hard. I haven't told anyone besides Kira of my decision so I have people to inform. I think, though, that if there is a guy that truly wants to be with me, he will wait for me. It's going to be hard, but I think I need it. So, here we go. Pray for me to be strong in my attempt at giving myself time to heal. This, I think, will be better too for whoever I end up with in the end because I will be able to give my whole self to him, without worrying about still having feelings and loose ends with other people.